Lately all I feel is darkness and insecurities. I feel like nothing will ever fix itself and it will always be this way. My parents are near a breakup which leads me to think that if such a long relationship could end in divorce, mine could easily go down the same path. I gave up my dreams to stay with the love of my life and now I just feel like it will never happen, I no longer have dreams or things to look forward to. It's also absolutely disgusting how there's some guy walking around perfectly fine without a care in the world meanwhile I'm scared to walk to my car in the dark, I flinch when my boyfriend touches me sometimes and get scared when he's upset all because of this guy who's living his life perfectly fine as if he had done nothing. I don't walk around upset or crying all the time or anything, I look happy & a lot of things do make me happy, but deep down I just feel empty. Like nothing really matters and some nights I just want to take my life, what's the point of staying alive anyways? I look at my future and there's really nothing to look forward to. Some nights are worse than others I guess and tonight is one of them. I just want this feeling to go away.