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Empathy Only I feel depressed and ashamed. I see no hope.

worthless_loser

Well-Known Member
#1
I got bad news from the doctor a while ago.
I've got osteoarthritis in my knee.
I've been reading up on the condition for a while and there is no way to fix it, you just have to work out a lot and not be as bad.
I'm going to keep getting worse with age and I'll probably be hobbling around on a cane when I get old.
The worst part is I did it to myself because I was stupid.

I bought a standing desk a couple of months ago because I wanted to stand up and work on my computer.
I was planning on getting an exercising machine like a standing elliptical or under-the-desk treadmill and get some low impact exercise while I work on my computer.
That way I could be healthier.
But I was locking my knees while I was standing and I did it for too long, powering through the discomfort because I thought it would get better anyway.
My knees have been stiff and in pain for over a month, so I fucked them up good.

I could have avoided this if I just bought the standing elliptical machine first, and then the desk.
The elliptical was cheaper anyway.
Or asked my parents to buy a treadmill that folds down and can be put under a desk.
Then I could have started exercising as soon as I bought the desk.
But instead I fucked up my knees for life and I probably won't be able to use the desk standing up anyway, so I wasted my money on that too.

I feel shitty.
I want to cry it away, but I don't want my parents to see me crying and start bothering me about it.
I don't like being like that around them.
They would just tell me it's not a big deal.
It is for me.
I wanted to travel and go places, but now I'm afraid I'm going to be stuck in my house for the rest of my life.
I'm also scared I may have fucked up my taxes too.
If I had a new years resolution for this year, it would be to be able to fix my damn knees and be able to exercise without hurting myself.

I don't know what else to say.
Thanks for reading.
 
#2
I've got osteoarthritis in my knee.
I've been reading up on the condition for a while and there is no way to fix it, you just have to work out a lot and not be as bad.
Sorry that this happened.

There might be some treatments that would be worth trying for this though. I could try to make some suggestions if you'd like.

I hope things can get better soon
 

LOSTINSIGHT

Well-Known Member
#4
Does this condition run in your family?
Whats the drs recommendations ?
whats your diet like ,, research diet and nutrition for arthritis,do everything you can to reduce inflammation. Sugar is a nightmare for inflammation.
Doing everything you can will reduce any catastrophizing.
Peace.
 

worthless_loser

Well-Known Member
#6
Thank you for the recommendations.

I don't think it does run in the family, at least not that I know of.
The doctor said light movements, and my physical therapist said it might just be inflammation.
I hope he is right.

I'm vegan and I eat mostly healthy food.
Smoothie with oatmeal, strawberries, and blueberries for breakfast.
Nothing for lunch.
And either Peas or Black Beans, Broccoli, and Carrots for dinner.
After that, raisins and peanuts to clean the junk out of my teeth.
I've heard that ginger, turmeric, and sesame seeds are good for inflammation.
 

LOSTINSIGHT

Well-Known Member
#7
I'm obsessed with the body and nutrition(because of chronic ill health)
I've watched alot ,,vegan ,carnivore,paleo, vegetarian,,alot of research is pointing to foods and nutrition for our particular genes and body type on the cellular level .
Type functional nutritionist into youtube and youl be surprised how much there is too it.
I was into green smoothies and forcing kale into me .I found out from a gut microbiombe test I didn't have the bacteria to breakdown oxilates from plants,my body was storing these poisons .there's tests these days to help prevent ailments.

Of course DRs have there place but nutrition and what we put in our body has been scandalously hidden and ignored .
Take it from me treat what goes into your body extremely serious.studying nutrition is one of the best things youl ever do .
Take care .
 
#9
I got bad news from the doctor a while ago.
I've got osteoarthritis in my knee.
I've been reading up on the condition for a while and there is no way to fix it, you just have to work out a lot and not be as bad.
I'm going to keep getting worse with age and I'll probably be hobbling around on a cane when I get old.
The worst part is I did it to myself because I was stupid.

I bought a standing desk a couple of months ago because I wanted to stand up and work on my computer.
I was planning on getting an exercising machine like a standing elliptical or under-the-desk treadmill and get some low impact exercise while I work on my computer.
That way I could be healthier.
But I was locking my knees while I was standing and I did it for too long, powering through the discomfort because I thought it would get better anyway.
My knees have been stiff and in pain for over a month, so I fucked them up good.

I could have avoided this if I just bought the standing elliptical machine first, and then the desk.
The elliptical was cheaper anyway.
Or asked my parents to buy a treadmill that folds down and can be put under a desk.
Then I could have started exercising as soon as I bought the desk.
But instead I fucked up my knees for life and I probably won't be able to use the desk standing up anyway, so I wasted my money on that too.

I feel shitty.
I want to cry it away, but I don't want my parents to see me crying and start bothering me about it.
I don't like being like that around them.
They would just tell me it's not a big deal.
It is for me.
I wanted to travel and go places, but now I'm afraid I'm going to be stuck in my house for the rest of my life.
I'm also scared I may have fucked up my taxes too.
If I had a new years resolution for this year, it would be to be able to fix my damn knees and be able to exercise without hurting myself.

I don't know what else to say.
Thanks for reading.
I’m sorry this has happened to you, I know what it’s like to deal with a debilitating health condition that prevents you from doing and you feel like is all your fault. I used to want to travel and I wanted to do so much with my life but I can’t because my health makes it almost impossible to do so. I feel like I’ll never be able to have a life of my own. Maybe you could try talking to a sibling/friend if you can’t talk to your parents? I would also try a whole food plant based diet, I’ve known of other people with such problems and have felt great improvements. Hope you feel better in time, don’t give up on your dreams.
 
#10
I got bad news from the doctor a while ago.
I've got osteoarthritis in my knee.
I've been reading up on the condition for a while and there is no way to fix it, you just have to work out a lot and not be as bad.
I'm going to keep getting worse with age and I'll probably be hobbling around on a cane when I get old.
The worst part is I did it to myself because I was stupid.

I bought a standing desk a couple of months ago because I wanted to stand up and work on my computer.
I was planning on getting an exercising machine like a standing elliptical or under-the-desk treadmill and get some low impact exercise while I work on my computer.
That way I could be healthier.
But I was locking my knees while I was standing and I did it for too long, powering through the discomfort because I thought it would get better anyway.
My knees have been stiff and in pain for over a month, so I fucked them up good.

I could have avoided this if I just bought the standing elliptical machine first, and then the desk.
The elliptical was cheaper anyway.
Or asked my parents to buy a treadmill that folds down and can be put under a desk.
Then I could have started exercising as soon as I bought the desk.
But instead I fucked up my knees for life and I probably won't be able to use the desk standing up anyway, so I wasted my money on that too.

I feel shitty.
I want to cry it away, but I don't want my parents to see me crying and start bothering me about it.
I don't like being like that around them.
They would just tell me it's not a big deal.
It is for me.
I wanted to travel and go places, but now I'm afraid I'm going to be stuck in my house for the rest of my life.
I'm also scared I may have fucked up my taxes too.
If I had a new years resolution for this year, it would be to be able to fix my damn knees and be able to exercise without hurting myself.

I don't know what else to say.
Thanks for reading.

Im sorry, mate. This kind of thing is so hard to hear. I have gotten tough news in the past that felt overwhelming and so final. Ill light a candle for you and hope that you are feeling safe tonight. Thank you for coming here to vent it out. That was such a promising and good choice. Hugs.
 

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