I've been feeling so tired lately. The backaches have been getting worse. There's just so reason for me to get up anymore. Been suffering for years from depression and things seem to get better for me but than depression keeps returning back into my life. Now I'm fearing that depression will continue to consume me. Is there ever a chance for me? Is there any hope at all? Been feeling so lately-worthless, like I don't matter to anyone. Sometimes I feel like a complete piece of trash. My whole life I've been told that I was worthless, that I was no good. At one point my own brother told me I embarrass the family. Pretty soon I forgot what it was like to talk, I even hated the own sound of my voice. I keep suffering and getting worse. But I feel like there's no point anymore. I don't even have any friends. And believe me I have tried. I put my heart out to people, always willing to talk to people, build up true friendships. Friendships that will always last. Friends are like family to me. Cause I don't know if I can even trust my own family anymore. They all talk horribly about me, that I can hear them in the next room. And they know I can hear them! :smash: Try to not let it bother me, but deep down it's painful. Their always back and forth with me, hot and cold. It's so confusing. Feel like I'm different or as if there's something wrong with me. I just want to be happy again. I hate this sadness. But there's so much pain that I feel inside right now. And it's been very hard for me to even get this out right now. I'm just looking for someone out there that can relate to me, or people who actually care. I trusted the wrong type of people, people who I thought who cared about me. But I was sooo wrong.... I just hope there's someone out there who does care.