I feel really really bad

[FieryL]

I am really now not in the best parts of my life. Too many things happening, and I'm getting too many L's.

I've just posted it in how are you feeling 1-10 thread, probably will copy it here, because I don't have any strength to write all of this again. But basically chronic problems with health, problems with bicycle which I need to work as a courier, everything a bit too much, and I am really feeling fear that the date, when I won't be able to pay rent for the hostel will come much sooner than I anticipated/was ready for, can really be this or next month

 

[Oizys Moros]

@FieryL

Sorry that you find yourself in this dilemma. Seemingly like the bottom is falling out. So many aspects of life that bring about anxiety worry and stress.

Not sure what country but findhelp.org could be a valuable resource for a variety of assistance in multiple areas.

Hope that your bicycle gets repaired soon and that all your worries will become your triumphs.

 

[may71]

I'm sorry things are so bad. You're welcome to say more about it if you'd like to, but it's also ok if you don't want to.

Sending hugs if you would like hugs

 

[Windhover]

I wish there was something we could do to help @FieryL. I hope there is some sort of help availabe where you are as regards your physical health and your mental health.

 

[FieryL]

I'm in Argentina. I am already in contact with some helping organizations, but they have had limited resources since very long ago.

The main problem in Argentina are low salaries and now rising cost of life, particularly rent. And delivery courier applications haven't rised their tariffs since at least start of 2026, whatever couriers are getting is practically tips only.

And the bicycle.. the problem is that I'm learning to service it, with help of my friend, which is good, but comes sporadically for reasons. And some of it leads to buying new parts, which is always such a gamble here in Argentina because of so many low quality products, that it's not even funny.

 

[FieryL]

I'm so tired of this, physically and emotionally. Spend 10 dollars for this part, and 15 there, and some of it may not work, so you'd have to buy again and it could be good if there was money for it, but I just don't have money, in a sense that it's a first when I'm not sure if I'll be able to pay for the hostel this month.

And problems with bicycle often come during weekends when the courier work is most active, but bicycle shops are closed

 

[FieryL]

Any quality psychiatric help for me here should start with buying insurance, the free options just don't work for me, I tried. It's not *that* expensive, but I keep failing to earn even that money.

It's on top of stuff with endo and with tooth, well good news that insurance should cover it as well, ok, now where to get that little money

 

[FieryL]

yeah, I know, emigration is hard. Yeah, some of the russians, that came here, had to live in the streets for some time, and some didn't survive it. I'm not ready. Not ready to sell my stuff, including some thing that are really dear to me, and looking for places to store other things... which are always temporary. I mean, you wouldn't keep even your cellphone with you, if you live on the streets here, they are getting stolen.

I just hope I would be able to find a temporary place to live if anything would come to not being able to pay for the hostel... But do many uncertainties of the future are driving me mad and just stop my brains from working (((

 

[KM76710]

Sad hearing how many things are going bad for you right now, and it always feels even worse when they just collect and build. You are in our thoughts and as noted wishing there is more that we can do.