I really do, I feel I am such a leech and taking everyone's time. I have no life and everyone is so busy. I feel like such a user, such a loser, and I just feel sad and tears flow down. I feel like crying. I hate feeling like that. I hate it so much. I feel like I'm a bother to people, a third wheel. Always been a third wheel.... I see people happy and it makes me sad. I shouldn't be sad, I should be happy for them, but it reminds me how I'll never be happy so it makes me sad. I'm tired, I have no fight and no support, how long is one supposed to carry herself? I'm heavy and tired.