I've been dealing with depression ever since I was a teenager, I'm 22 now. It's pretty much ruined my life. I have no desire to do anything with my life. I sleep half the day and the other half I'm wide awake and doing nothing that helps to improve my life. I feel like I'm wasting my life and don't know how to fix it. I don't care about having friends, a boyfriend, going out and having fun or anything that everybody else likes to do. I just wish I could sleep the whole day and only wake up when I need it. Sometimes I hate that I've let my life get this way but then it only makes me further depressed and I stop caring. Although I feel like I would like to have a life I lack the motivation to do it.