I started work a month ago. I dunno if rules allow me to say the company name, but it's a fast food place well known for it's great customer service and chicken. Yum. Anyway. I feel like a complete idiot. I mess up stupid things a lot and I feel like the other employees, who have been working there for YEARS, think I'm stupid for not realizing things that could be just common sense. It's hard to be happy and smiley for the customer when I'm so uncomfortable around my coworkers. Not to mention, I am a complete introvert and it's hard to deal with lots of strangers in the first place. So not only am I working customer service with a million unfamiliar faces, but I don't even have any friends behind the counter to back myself up to. It feels terrible. I just got back from a meeting. Everyone is good friends and all hung out and spoke after the meeting was over, although I left immediately and no one bothered to say goodbye. It's a little lonely. I just feel lonely and embarrassed. I can't stop thinking about the things I've done to mess up my simple jobs. Or how it's so hard to try to connect with my coworkers. A few of the other cashiers are eager to talk to me when we're not busy, but with my social anxieties it's really hard to accept that and reciprocate it. And it's not that the other employees are harsh, mean, or careless, either. It's all my fault. I do things wrong and worry about it too much. My coworkers are really nice, and I like them a lot. A couple of them even make an effort to talk to me when business is slow. It's just that I'm so afraid of what they think of me, and I know they see me mess up EVERYTHING I do. It's terrifying. And with my social anxiety+introversion, I get so withdrawn at work because I'm dealing with so many strangers at once. It's so extremely hard to be myself when my anxiety and my natural instinct is to retreat. I just wish that I were actually friends with these people so I could stop being so afraid to go to work.