The sexual abuse I endured ended 5 years ago yet it still feels like an open wound. I think everything's going fine and then the memories and that same horrible unease and discomfort I had at the time returns. I have a psychologist who I've been seeing for a few months (This time it's privately funded so I don't have to keep changing psychologist) and before that I had psychiatrists, counselors, psychoanalysts, and social workers to try and help me. I'm just so tired of being a victim. People talk about moving on and accepting what happened but I've tried that and it doesn't seem to work. I feel like the person I was died the day I got raped and this sad, mentally ill girl has taken her place. I grieve the loss of the person I was. I'm just so tired of it. I didn't ask for any of it and I'm stuck trying to navigate the world while simultaneously reliving the worst period of my life. All I want is one day without mental illness. No anxiety, no overthinking how men treat me, no suicidal thoughts. Unfortunately I can't change the past so I'm just stuck with it.
I've been thinking about going to a support group for sexual abuse survivors. I've never done group therapy before. Does anyone have any experience with this?
I've been thinking about going to a support group for sexual abuse survivors. I've never done group therapy before. Does anyone have any experience with this?