I hurt him.

[Pentacle]

I Weep. 08/05/08

Streaks of red mirror me, with tracks upon my face
As slight and crystal drops of melancholy saliently trace
The familiar path of wounds and scars, of love and of remorse
A wistful stream meandering down its solemn course.

Your face, your smile reflected in, each and every tear
And as they sting my eyes do close, and you again appear
To once more fuel a dying flame as my cries began to wane
Behind close lids I see you face and I start to weep again.

The morrow’s filled with too many memories and nothing sound
No tangible emotions left to wrap my aching arms around.
And every beat of a shattered heart intensifies the dread
That you and I shall never lay upon our nuptial bed.

Sorrow ebbs and sorrow flows, forever to erode
Laying down another path
Beside the tears that had just flowed.

That is what he wrote about me.


I hurt him.


Now he has someone else.


How do I cope?

 

[itmahanh]

Hun I'm sorry. But one way to cope is to reach out to your friends and the members here that care about you and want to help you through this. You're not alone, just grab an outstretched hand there are many to choose from!!!

 

[Pentacle]

It is really difficult because his friends are my friends, except they all knew him longer, so they've all stayed with him. No one has spoken to me since...

We split on good terms, it was relaxed, a joint decision, but I suggested it first...

I think he was cheating on me with a girl called Sarah! I don't know where to look because she is one of our joint friends. I've seen messages that she sent to him, that are very suggestive. Sometimes I slap myself for thinking he was good for me, I mean he has been divorced before, but this time something felt that little bit special, just a little different.

The messages hurt like crap...

 

[Pentacle]

We're planning on speaking tonight, I need to ask him about this girl, I need to know the truth.

Do I have the right?

I don't know, but I do know that I still love him.

I hear people talking about him and my insides turn... I'm hurting more now then ever before, I think I made the wrong decision by breaking up with him.