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I just realised i killed my closest friend

Discussion in 'Grief and Bereavement' started by SimplyLost, Jun 18, 2013.

  1. SimplyLost

    SimplyLost Member

    Before i took a rather large OD a few years back, i heard a voice, we talked every day, she was my best friend. She kept me from feeling too lonely, she saved me from suicide a few times. One time she didn't, after the OD i hallucinated, i saw her in a physical form, she kissed me on the cheek, and i don't remember anything after that. When i woke up the doctors told me i had been dead for a few minutes at some stage.

    I realised a few days ago, when i thought her say something that was completely unlike her to say. I realised it was now me trying to keep myself company, and why i felt so amazingly lonely even though she was there. I killed her with the OD. That was a kiss goodbye. I killed my closest friend, and it's all my fault.
  2. yep

    yep Well-Known Member

    How is that having OD makes you a killer?
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter