... but I am happy in my marriage. I am new here, so please be kind. I am in a very loving relationship. My husband worships the ground I walk on and I love him to pieces. We have a healthy sexual relationship and lots of fun together. My thing is - I like women too. Sometimes when we are together, I am thinking about a woman - not anyone I personally know, usually someone in the media who I think is hot. I have been with women in my past, but my husband does not know about it. I would love to have a secret relationship with a woman, but I consider that cheating and would not do that to my husband. The thing is, it is making me terribly depressed! Help!? Has anyone else found themselves in this position? How did they cope? To come out as bi to anyone in my "bubble" would seriously damage our reputation, position in our church, and basically rumble the whole foundation of what is our "world." Just looking for some support here. Thanks.