I loved him .. but ...

[Drifter]

Madeleine I know that song very well... its true as well. You know my stance already Crushed but im here to support you either way... heres some lyrics that represent love in a true form

Because the world is cruel
And promises are broken
Dont try to tell me
Anything dont try to tell me
You'll be true to me you know the
Real truth is never spoken

Crushed youll need to soon realize HE was the lucky one and hes the one missing out. I promise you that one day he'll realized what he lost

 

[CRUSHED]

I’ve been crying for the past two days. I can barely see the keyboard. My knees feel so weak.

I’ve been constantly listing to (Michael Buble - Can't Help Falling in Love), I like his voice better.

Madeleine I used to listen to breakheart hotel before, it feels different now.:sad:

 

[CRUSHED]

That’s it. Time has stopped for me. I have nothing else to live for. When we first met, I wasn’t looking for love; I was just looking for fun. It just happened. Before I knew him I was nothing, then I loved him, he gave me all reasons to live, to love, to care, to sacrifice, and when he left, I’m back to nothing. I’m nothing. I’m a waste of space and air. I’m a waste of life. I’m just human leftovers with a broken heart, and a tortured soul. I’m nobody. If he returned back my heart, who the hell in earth would accept it again. It’ chattered, and used to its extent. My heart only loved him, and will never love again. My life is over. Though he may not love me anymore, I’m going to love him more and more everyday and every second till I die.

No Drifter, I was the lucky one to know him, no man ever moved my heart the way he did. At least I loved and lost. I know now what’s it like to be in love, and I know how it feels to die for love. I never thought I could ever love this way. I had high hopes that he will call again or send me an email or something, I even thought we’d at least run in to each other, but he is no where. I guess now I’m really alone.

Loving him was the best thing that ever happened to me, though it hurts like nothing anybody ever felt. I don’t want to love again. I don’t want to stand up again. I’ll just keep falling in love in him. Day after day till maybe someday we’ll meet after death.

I’m a fool.

 

[CRUSHED]

I feel better today. I stopped counting how many days since we split apart. It’s helping a little. But still, I think of him a lot, I dream of him everyday. My heart is still sore.

There’s this quote that I liked so much, but I don’t know by whom. It says “Don’t think of what you are missing till you forget what you already have”. It’s very true. I’m thinking of him a lot, and forgetting my self. It’s like every time I think of him, a piece of me is replaced by a piece of him. I’m actually starting to have thoughts like “Hey! He’s not worth it, wake up”. I feel better, because I feel I'm getting some of my power back. In addition, the next month I’m going to be so busy, I have to clear my head a little. I just have to.

 

[CRUSHED]

You hurt me deep.
You betrayed my trust.

You lied to me when you said you loved me.
You lied when you said you were different.
You lied when you said you will give me wings.
You lied when you said you wanted to travel with me around the world.
You lied when you said that you’re mine, and that your heart is for no one but me.
You lied when you promised me that you’d replace every tear with a million smiles.

You gave me more tears then I already have. Because of you now I have tears enough for the whole universe.

You once told me that your love for me is so strong that all creatures in the sea would die from it.

FUCK YOU and FUCK YOUR love
I HATE YOU