death didn't take my loved one either, but he physically disappeared from my world in 2006, when I was 15. A couple of years went by, and I never really thought of him anymore, nor what had happened between us because it was just too painful and embarrassing for me, I mean, I'm not even sure if the man I loved (and love) ever felt something for me. It was not until he texted me and asked me to meet him again that these feelings re-emerged. Sadly we never met. I had gained a lot of weight since we broke up, and I didn't want him to see me like this. He told me that it'd be weird to see each other again, but that it'd also be exciting. During my senior year of high school (in 2008), some girl told me he had been fooling around with some skinny bitch for a long time. When I asked him about it, he said, and I quote "Don't listen to that girl. She's just trying to bother you, because she knows she will NEVER mean for me what you mean for me" and then he asked me if I was seeing anyone, and I told him that I wasn't and he replied "I'm not seeing anyone either, but I don't like serious commitments". In 2009 he went to Sweden, his father's family is from Sweden, and HE texted me telling me he was going away, and so I told him that I wanted to see him, that I needed to talk to him, and he said that he liked the idea, but then, out of the blue, when I summoned him in a place, he told me that'd be better just to meet in a night club (he knows I can't go to night clubs because I have no friends to go with). I don't know why the sudden change of mind. Anyway, he came back a year later, and never talked to me again. I'm still wondering what happened. I still want to know if he ever felt something for me, or if I was just a bet like my father told me. I don't know what to do. I have this NEED of talking to him, of seeing him again, but I'm too scared of texting him and receive no answer. I know he's fooling around with a couple of girls.. but.. in the bottom of my heart I hope that he will one day tell me everything I want to hear and that we'll get back together..