I am Joe and will kill myself soon. I know what you will say: You are young, have your're whole life ahead of you I am a 30+ year old with a associate degree in Public Safety (its worthless, I don't have the credit or cash to further my education without getting a job making 30k first) You will find a good job, besides money is not everything I've been looking for seven years. No its not because I have a bad resume, I never been fired from a job or left in bad standing. No its not because I got bad grades in college, I'm manga cum laude. I went to a ton of job fairs and recruiters to find out why my resume does not get me interviews with decent jobs? answer: You graduated from a community college that is accredited with a very impressive gpa, but not impressive enough for today's competitive job market. Yes, you have a a degree but we want a bachelors degree. Plus you have no connections or experience. Since I've been in the service industry since I was 14 I'm a stupid and only know how to be a retail worker. No I will not get a good job. Just a slave to the rich public. Money is not everything? Money means you have food in your stomach, money means you have roof over your head, money means you have the freedom to travel. Money means you can get help when your sick, hurt, or in pain. I grew up poor, joined the work force when I was 14 (paid under the table since I was a minor) and know what its like to go for days without food, or to sleep in a house with no heat or light in the middle of winter. Money means you can go to a "Impressive" college to make a resume "Impressive" Money is everything. You are just lonely, you will find a companion to make life worth living I will never find a attractive women to love me or just spend time with me (I'm overweight, poor, and never had a hit on five different dating sites) If I can't even get a date in my teens or twenties, what chance do I have now. Besides who wants a man who is still bagging groceries at 30, and hates himself? If you kill yourself you will hurt those who love you, who care about you My family will not be upset that I'm dead, they will be upset that I have little life insurance and will be pissed they will have to spend 500 dollars to dispose of my body. Besides we all die, does it matter how? My friends might have a toast then be thankful I'm out of misery. At least you have your health I live with a permanent nerve pain from a past injury. I don't care about my health, I wish I was worse so I can die naturally sooner. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem If you have no permanent solution to misery, or even a day to day solution, then why not use a permanent solution that will eliminate you pain and misery? Suicide is a sin Is god not forgiving? Are the 9/11 rescue workers who ran into the towers knowing they were going to fall sinners? Does god not want us to find peace and happiness? Did Jesus not commit Suicide? You are being Selfish I am only wanting to find peace and happiness. I'm not entitled to it, I don't automatically deserve it, and there are many worst off then me. But I have no hope, no dreams, no future. I can't keep lying to myself by saying "It will get better, keep hoping" Every year life gets worse. More pain, fear, and misery. Also if I kill myself that is one less person fighting for a job. I die it opens a position for someone else to succeed. So in a way I'm being selfless. I'm very scared. I don't have anymore hope. So can someone give me one GOOD reason to live Is there a pill to make me have hope? I am posting this to see if I can find a new perspective, For I have none to keep going.