Someone I know has aspergers and he's my old boyfriend and we're both really close now and he's even told me that he only wants to be with me yet he won't put a label on our relationship. I believe he's truly scared because his last girlfriend cheated on him with a guy she met off of World Of Warcraft, married him and had a baby with him. He was always faithful to her and he blames himself constantly for people leaving him and cheating on him, he's depressed by his disorder. He won't say it outloud, I can feel it though. Believe he blames his disorder for his girlfriend's for always leaving him. He'll be very honest with me about his disorder and he told me to read up on it. I read up on it, I just don't fully understand it completely because I have a learning disability and talking to someone who understand this disorder will help me understand him better. I pick up on his mood swings, they seem very familiar to mine because I'm bipolar. In my heart, I feel it may be a little bit different from him. There's times he's very loving towards me and than he gets distant. He won't ignore me in the room and he'll talk to me, he's just very quiet and seems distant a little bit. There was a time where I felt he was growing bored of me and I ended up nodding off and each time I nodded off and woke up, he kept looking at me. Than I realized that maybe he just gets in these weird little moods and he doesn't mean to do what he does. He'll kiss me, be passionate and tender. I see love in his blue eyes as he looks at me. Example: One day we were cuddling together and he kissed my forehead twice. The minute he did this, I felt so much love from him. No other guy has ever did this to me ever. I feel like he loves me so much but it scares him at the same time. Than other times again he kinda pulls away. I think he's scared of getting hurt again. He did tell me that he trusts me, deep down I think he's very scared. He even mentioned being in a relationship with me and then once again he pulled back. He told me that he has a hard time relating to people, that sometimes he doesn't always want to talk to people, he likes being alone a lot of the time, nervous going out to movies sometimes and getting out of the house sometimes. There's times he pushes himself to leave. Before we leave, he usually gets upset stomachs and suffers with IBS and told me to give him a while before we leave. There's times he says things that may seem hurtful, he said he doesn't mean it. Once again this seems very familiar to me because yet again I say very inappropriate things sometimes and hurtful things because I'm bipolar. He's mentioned how sometimes he wants to "run away" and he does isolate himself a lot. There's times he gets quiet and won't want to talk at all. We'll sit quietly and immediately again I feel like I did something wrong. He keeps telling me, "You didn't do anything wrong. I want you here. Don't worry so much." When I'm ready to say "Goodbye" to me I feel as if shuts himself off and he'll kiss and hug me, yet it's not as passionate as when he first greeted me. He has a hard time taking in emotions, especially sadness and anger and when people are angry it freaks him out. Emotions seems to be a very scary thing to him and he mentioned how it overwhelms him. I do my best to try to put him at ease. A few times I did cry and now I'm trying to maintain my emotions. The last two times I saw him I was very emotional and I feel as it overwhelmed him a lot. As of right now he won't talk to me as much and I feel as if my emotions scared him away into hiding again. He gets a lot of nightmares which he told me he gets are "night terrors" and I care for him so deeply. I tried posting this up in two other forums and nobody responded. All I know is the symptoms. That's all I know of. The things that he told me. I read more online and I understand the articles, I just have a learning disability and it takes me a lot longer to take in certain things. This is all I know of his disorder and I'd really really appreciate if someone responded back to this thread or gave me a pm. I want to understand him, so I can offer him my support. I love him so much that I'm willing on trying to understand him and support him. I need to learn about this disorder so next time I see him, I'll be a lot more understanding. I'm a very very patient person, I just hope someone can help me understand him a little better. Everything I wrote is all I know of. If there's more you'd like to tell me, please do so please! I want to understand this disorder. He means everything to me.