I am a university drop out living back home with my dad. I have never been the smartest, or prettiest or anything in my family. Didn't do well in A levels and failed to gt through uni... I understand that my dad has every right to b mad. I wasted his money and nw he reminds me of all the things I would never b. I want to see a counselor but I can't afford one (health care isn't free these ends). I really want to try and fight this urge to jump off a building or stab myself. Can anyone please help me?