I need some opinions or maybe some wisdom

[HavocHUN]

Okay so for starters I have severe depression, and self-harmed a while ago, for now it's enough to know about me that my condition is physical and incurable and without rooting out the problem psychological counseling isn't really helpful.
Now I'm already recovering and am past the real dangerous days, but still, sometimes I do feel my mental state is on edge and could use a pill or two of antidepressant.
The problem is, that I live in Hungary, where, even though I've never went trough it, so I'm not 100% sure it works like this, but its supposedly standard protocol to lock up anyone that is harmful towards themselves or their environment.
Right now, due to my situation being impossible to resolve (I've worked my way trough every conceivable route) and with my condition not being psychological in nature, I do not get any actual medication. For a while I was just left off the hook and was given some pain killers that don't work, so I never really managed to address the issue of psychological damage that comes with so much pain. By now, at my one and only breakdown that happened in an especially bad period of my life I self-harmed quite bad, so by now I would be under fire if I were to look of professional help. I don't really want to move into a psychiatry, quite the contrary, but some medication would help...
So what am I supposed to do?

 

[Daphna]

Okay so for starters I have severe depression, and self-harmed a while ago, for now it's enough to know about me that my condition is physical and incurable and without rooting out the problem psychological counseling isn't really helpful.
Now I'm already recovering and am past the real dangerous days, but still, sometimes I do feel my mental state is on edge and could use a pill or two of antidepressant.
The problem is, that I live in Hungary, where, even though I've never went trough it, so I'm not 100% sure it works like this, but its supposedly standard protocol to lock up anyone that is harmful towards themselves or their environment.
Right now, due to my situation being impossible to resolve (I've worked my way trough every conceivable route) and with my condition not being psychological in nature, I do not get any actual medication. For a while I was just left off the hook and was given some pain killers that don't work, so I never really managed to address the issue of psychological damage that comes with so much pain. By now, at my one and only breakdown that happened in an especially bad period of my life I self-harmed quite bad, so by now I would be under fire if I were to look of professional help. I don't really want to move into a psychiatry, quite the contrary, but some medication would help...
So what am I supposed to do?

I don’t live in Hungary 🇭🇺, but I know that we all suffer from past traumas that scarred us on the inside. Medicine is just like the illegal drugs, it only numbs the pain but doesn’t heal the root of the problem. Perhaps this is why you’re supposed to do therapy with the addition of medicine? In either case I’m not familiar with your country, healthcare, and culture. I wanted to let you know that you are heard here and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[may71]

I do feel my mental state is on edge and could use a pill or two of antidepressant

I think you'd probably be able to get some antidepressants if you asked for them from your doctor.

While in general it's best to be honest with your doctor, if the fear of being locked up is preventing you from getting treatment, you may want to leave out the part about self harm. In most countries, you won't get locked up unless you indicate you have a plan or have gathered methods to harm yourself. I'm not sure what it's like in Hungary.

The link below has some information about treatment methods, including conventional, alternative, and self-help methods. Maybe there's something in there that would help.

Treating Depression, Anxiety, Insomnia, Pain; Other Suicide Help