I need to go away

[Dani24]

I’ve ruinEd my life and I can’t change it. What’s done is done, now I have to face the consequence. I feel like I have wasted what is supposed to be the best time of my life being depressed and I don’t really know how to get over it. Sometimes, the pain isn’t poetic. Sometimes, there is no lesson to be learned. Sometimes, all we can do is break down and let it hurt till we don’t hurt no more. I don’t belong there. It’s better if I go away. Live off the grid, it’s better. I’m beginning to realize how little I mean to everyone.I made horrible mistakes and I don’t know how to get over them. I can almost understand why people < mod edit - method > . Cause lately I've been dealing with the loneliest nights, trying to see another day alive has been my only fight. I did this alone, I'm doing that alone, I do it all alone, so when I fall, I fall alone.You never get over it. But you get to where it doesn’t bother you so much. I really really don’t want to be live anymore And there’s nothing anyone can do.I’ll finally drown in my pain and never resurface. I know I am human and people make mistakes, but I can’t recover from mistakes and it’s killing me. I don’t know what else to do.

 

[Ash600]

Ahh man, reading this, the amount of pain you're feeling must be so incredibly intense. I get it that right at this moment, it's hard to find a safe way out because it seems as if everything is just closing in. That hurts and I'm so sorry that you're going through this. In terms of finding a way to get over the depression, maybe just for the time being try and find some way to just batten down the hatches and roll with it until this "storm" eases. I know it's easier said than done, I've been there myself, but I just hope that somehow somewhere, you'll find a way safely through this.

 

[Rwt]

“When I fall, I fall alone”. That is really hard to handle. I am there as well and don’t have any wisdom to share. Being alone is incredibly difficult and it makes everything seem meaningless.

 

[1964dodge]

i'm sorry that you are suffering so much right now. as for mistakes i've made too many to count, some minor and some bad. we have to learn to forgive ourself and move on from the pain. you are still young enough to turn your life around.

you won't have a perfect life, nobody does. but you can still have a good life if you keep fighting. you aren't alone you have us, we will listen and we do care. instead of blaming yourself for your mistakes try to learn from them and become stronger.

mike...

 

[Ash600]

Regarding mistakes which people make, I just wanted to put this out there. Everyone makes mistakes. but what compounds it, is when there is a failure to recognise when error(s) have been made. Of course in addition to this, the inability or unwillingness to learn from such mistakes is on the same level.

Now I don't know what it is that you have done, and I'm not going to ask as it's none of my business. Whether others around you eventually let it pass is their perogative. What you are in control of though, is the chance to forgive yourself and offer yourself an opportunity for redemption.

Wishing you the strength to overcome these difficult times.

 

[SkyTree]

You mean a lot to us! You're not alone even though it may feel that way. I've also done things I regret deeply. I am also at a loss sometimes about what to do. I can't undo them but I can will with all of my being to never make the same mistakes again if possible and to wish that I could undo them. I can't do more than that. Faith in Christ also helps me sometimes but I also wish that I died for my sins not him. Sometimes this song helps too.

 

[ib4uib]

Mistakes are something we make so we can learn from them.
If we never made a mistake we would almost be robotic, no feelings, emotions or care if we destroyed everybody and everything around us.
Mistakes are important!

The real credit I am going to give you here is actually admitting you made some.

To many people totally dismiss any fault of making a mistake, and they are some of the worse people you could ever wish to make.

So, don't go to hard on yourself!