I don't have anyone who one will be hurt or miss me, no dependants, family. I just need to get my cat taken care of. I have already bought a <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>. I have been saving up stuff like <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>. I need to get the <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>. I just still do not have the guts to do it. So now I am slowly torturing myself with <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>. I know I can't overdose, but it dulls the pain for a while and then I have to start all over. I know continuing will be painfully addicting and I don't have an endless supply. I am afraid to try weed. I haVe tried the marijuana tinctures and they do not do anything to me. The prozac does not relieve my depression. A shrink cannot help. I have the instinct to live and the fear of a gun. I want this life to be over. I want to not be on earth. I do not care if there is a heaven of hell. I do not believe in God as you know it. I believe the universe and life is a miracle!!!!! I do not want to be here, I just want top die peacefully in my sleep. I have NO WHERE to turn and NO ONE to help me. I just keep researching adn getting nowhere except my <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>. I could not post in proper place waiting to get activated. I am scared and want to talk to someone before I black out.