I really want to kill myself.

[sandy brown]

I don't have anyone who one will be hurt or miss me, no dependants, family.
I just need to get my cat taken care of.
I have already bought a <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>.
I have been saving up stuff like <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>. I need to get the <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>.

I just still do not have the guts to do it.
So now I am slowly torturing myself with <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>. I know I can't overdose, but it dulls the pain for a while and then I have to start all over. I know continuing will be painfully addicting and I don't have an endless supply. I am afraid to try weed. I haVe tried the marijuana tinctures and they do not do anything to me. The prozac does not relieve my depression. A shrink cannot help. I have the instinct to live and the fear of a gun.

I want this life to be over. I want to not be on earth. I do not care if there is a heaven of hell. I do not believe in God as you know it. I believe the universe and life is a miracle!!!!! I do not want to be here, I just want top die peacefully in my sleep.
I have NO WHERE to turn and NO ONE to help me. I just keep researching adn getting nowhere except my <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods>.

I could not post in proper place waiting to get activated. I am scared and want to talk to someone before I black out.

 

[41021]

Hey hon,
can you edit out the methods and then talk to us tell us what is going on?

*s**

 

[sudut]

I want this life to be over. I want to not be on earth. I do not care if there is a heaven of hell. I do not believe in God as you know it. I believe the universe and life is a miracle!!!!! I do not want to be here, I just want top die peacefully in my sleep.

you are reminding me how i used to feel almost 3 years ago. just hung on there and keep posting; it doesn't matter what you believe. I am sure you will find friends here.

 

[41021]

yeah, been there too. there now too. i hear you ***

you sound kind of desperate. Can you talk about what has been going on?

 

[total eclipse]

Hey lots of people here willing to listen to hear you and help out just tell us whats got you so down. If you can't talk here then call crisis and talk to a kind person there reach out okay get help for you. You do matter and people do care about you lots of caring people here just keep posting okay

 

[IV2010]

Hey lots of people here willing to listen to hear you and help out just tell us whats got you so down. If you can't talk here then call crisis and talk to a kind person there reach out okay get help for you. You do matter and people do care about you lots of caring people here just keep posting okay

agree with violet......keep talking.......tell us why you feel this way..
you have found a place to turn to here and we want to help....

 

[jxdama]

we are here for you.

 

[brokenandlonely]

I really do honestly know how you feel.... We're here if you need someone to talk to. :hug: