Hello, I am a young adult who is confused about my sexuality, and it is so mentally painful to me, that I have spent around 5 years being addicted to smoking so I don't have to deal with wanting to die because of it. I know that I'm not trans. Every single day of my life I can't figure out for sure what I am, and I truly feel that deep down there is more evidence that I am bisexual than anything, but I want to die if that's how I am. I feel that I will be inferior if I'm gay or bi because I can't have blood children the proper way and it's unnatural and wrong to me, it doesn't matter to me that my family accepts gay people, that's irrelevant to how I feel about it. The only good thing for me is that I was doing soft drugs almost all of my life, so that it may just be the drugs making me feel that I'm not strait, but even when I get off the drugs for a few months, it still feels confusing. Obviously if I were to get off of the drugs for a year or 2, that will be how I know what I am for sure, but I feel that I will kill myself if I am gay or bi after quitting the drugs and finding out who I really am. I don't want to die because I am inferior, does anyone know what I should do? Or what they would do if they were me? It's ok if you suggest that I end my life, as long as you be honest.