I want to end myself

[TheDevilsRival]

I’m so sorry to post this.

But unfortunately I just wish I would end myself to be honest, everything is getting worse, I don’t have my papers, no nothing I’m fucking stuck because I trusted a man. I was so stupid. I rather die than going back home. Because returning where I come from would be my greatest failure. I’m so scared.

I can’t work I hate my job, they can work 13 hours a day I just can’t I’m done it’s too much for me.
I was paralyzed, crying in silence in the bathroom telling myself not to run away bc I would get fired. The extra hours are killing me. There’s no escape I feel all my dreams are going to fall apart and I would have no hope no more. This is my last try I can’t after this seriously I’m done. I just want to end myself. I’m feeling so weak I can’t help nobody and not even myself.
I miss my mom even after everything… I just wish she was there to hug me even though physical contact was super strange in my family.

Man… how I feel is terrible, I wish nobody to feel suicidal it’s fucking terrible I swear to god. I’m so so sorry…. Worst thing is that I don’t have the balls to even try to kill myself. I’m so pathetic. Part of me wish so bad I would just < mod edit - method > or something tbh.
I wish my family was so much better so I could have stay and do my life in my country. Bro I just wish….

 

[1964dodge]

i undertand that your life sucks right now and you feel trapped. you have 3 choices 1. suicide, suicide is permanent and almost always is the wrong action. 2. just live with it, that is also a bad choice since it means a lifetime of suffering and 3. make plans to improve your life, it may take time and some hard times but you will make things better in time. it will also give you hope along the way. you are still very young with a future ahead

mike....

 

[may71]

I'm sorry you're going through this.

Sending hugs if you would like hugs