If you aren't privy to my story, basically I grew up with severe autism but it went undiagnosed until I was close to my mid-30s (I'm 41 now). It's caused me immense difficulty in finding and keeping a job, to the point where I'm convinced that at least 2 former businesses fired me for it and I'm afraid my current employer is gonna follow suit. Basically I wasted my whole 20s chasing a theatre tech career that never progressed beyond local small theatres. Once I was out front and center with that prospect I was forced to pivot and thought health care would be the answer. First I joined the eye care place in my local Wal-Mart in 2016 and I loved it, until I got into an altercation with another coworker after 3 years and she leveraged my disability to get me fired. I had trouble finding another eye care place in town but found a place in Milwaukee that was willing to hire me. That was October 2019. That went well (because we all know what happened in 2020). I was forced out of the job and had to move back home. I was forced to pivot again but less dramatically so into the pharmacy. I've been employed at 3 places in the last 6 years. Osco fired me because I was having an autistic meltdown and one of the other workers started yelling at me and when I retaliated I was fired. Now it's happening again. I'm having trouble finding ways to prevent it from happening but I'm afraid it's only a matter of time. The store I work at has said that everyone feels like they're walking on eggshells. When I challenged them back by telling them that I know I can get better at my job they told me to stay in my lane and that I will NEVER get better because "either I have the skills or I don't". Like there's gonna be no way I will ever get the chance to improve. I've been here before and I still don't know what to do. I think the only way to solve anything is suicide.
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I'm afraid my autism is gonna get me fired
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Your story sounds very similar to mine at the moment. I feel absolutely miserable in this situation. So I can image what it does. I'm very worried to become suicidal again. I really don't want it to happen because I don't want to hurt the people around me. But the fear is very much unsettling for me. I'm living through the same trauma again.
What is your plan of action to deal with this? I've already contacted medical professionals to reach out for the appropriate support. I hope you will find a good way to get out of this. There should be an other good job to find. There always is something. I also don't know what to find for myself right now, but I do hear people say that they're confident I will find it. So I hope the same will happen for you
What is your plan of action to deal with this? I've already contacted medical professionals to reach out for the appropriate support. I hope you will find a good way to get out of this. There should be an other good job to find. There always is something. I also don't know what to find for myself right now, but I do hear people say that they're confident I will find it. So I hope the same will happen for you
I don't really have a plan of action. I've been told that there's no way out because none of the other stores have room for me, and I've already been employed at most of the other pharmacies in the area. And to be told that improvement is impossible is really demoralizing to me. What am I doing here if I have no hope of getting better at my job? So I really feel stuck. It took me almost a year to find this job. I can't handle losing it but at the same time I think most of the people working with me are very toxic; they were very dismissive of everything that I brought up when I tried explaining what I was going through when I talked to them yesterday.