@Harmony
Card#1: Temperance (Basis of your situation)
Same as Witty's reading here. You are learning to achieve emotional balance and moderation, as well as practicing patience to find satisfactory solutions.
Card#2: Page of Cups (Desires)
You desire to be kind, gentle, thoughtful, creative, and artistic. You can at times be sensitive to criticism or the harsh realities of life. You are well-liked, but may have some difficulties socially due to your sensitive nature and others' thoughtlessness. As a desire card, this could represent your desire to attain all of your ideal character traits, and perhaps drop unwanted ones. If your sensitivity holds you back at times, you desire to be more assertive, tolerant, and emotionally stable. However, remember that everyone has their flaws and imperfections that are "uniquely them". It's okay, at times, to be sensitive to things. And it's also okay, at times, to tell whomever doesn't like it to fuck off. π
Card#3: Nine of Cups (Helpful Factors)
This is a very promising card that indicates emotional and material fulfillment, abundance, and the achievement of an important desire that brings you a sense of
overall fulfillment. So one of your helpful factors is hope. There is an abundance of hope (which you must also acquire within yourself) in you accomplishing your desired goals. Also, achieving both emotional and material fulfillment are needed to help you reach those goals.
Card#4: Queen of Swords (Opposing Factors)
The queen of swords is independent, forthright, and at times unemotional. So perhaps you, at times, attempt to cover up your sensitive nature (due to others' critique or possibly your own inability to deal with the resulting emotional turmoil) by abandoning it altogether (or pretending to). The queen of swords does have a good reasoning mind and excellent perception, which means she has mastered the ability to put emotion aside and concentrate on logic and facts. This is a good thing. But as your first card implies, learning to achieve
moderation is even better. The queen has plenty of inner strength due to past suffering, and she is happy anywhere that challenges her keen intellect and analytic nature. However, she can at times be overly critical, intolerant, and does not often give second chances. She is not someone to pick an argument with. To sum things up, you may at times hold back your true nature to avoid getting criticized or hurt, seeing as you've already been hurt in the past many a time. And when you do so, you may express yourself completely oppositely than you would really have liked to IF the possibility of getting hurt wasn't an issue. There is both good and bad here. Abandoning your emotions does lead you to think more clearly. But it can also deprive you of contentment, love, and true inner peace.
Card#5: Death (Outcome)
Again, I must reiterate, this is NOT --I repeat,
NOT-- to be taken literally. Of course, obviously, we all die someday. But that day isn't coming anytime soon for you. You've still got plenty of life to live. As in Witty's reading (again, for that matter. You guys got two of the same cards), this symbolizes the end of something old and the beginning of something new. There is a skull behind a shield that has a white stallion on it, the white stallion symbolizing purity. Thus, the answer to your question is that you can certainly achieve self-actualization by creating balance, moderation, tolerance, and inner peace within yourself, as indicated by previous cards.