I'm so pissed. I'm done. My bf told me he'd be out in the boondocks for a couple hours, but he'd only be a couple hours and then we'd spend some time together. That was this morning and he's been gone all day. Now it may not seem like a big deal, but yes I love being lied to and stood up by my bf. It feels sooo fucking great. So i'm pretty sure he's out getting high or something or he just doesn't give a fuck. But I'm just done. I'm so done. And the worst part is I can't even be mad to his face because he implied that our next fight would be the last. And I'm just tired of this. Why can't anyone just treat me right? Like I'm supposed to be treated. I just feel like shit. I feel like I don't belong. I don't matter. And I'm nothing. I want to rage and scream and I don't know what I'm even doing anymore. There could be a logical explanation but seeing as how this isn't the first time I really doubt it. I'm empty and I'm done and if I break up with him I'm completely and unbearably alone. After everything I've put into this relationship I end up alone. Friendships, relationships, anything I put effort into ends up in pain. And I'm tired. And I'm done.