just quickly, im autistic and struggle a lot knowing how to reply to people, so if i dont respond it doesnt mean i havent read it, or i dont appreciate it. its just hard for me to find the right words. thanks in advance.
anyway, ive been struggling. a lot. recently.
i dont get messages from people. no one ever reaches out to me. im always the one saying hi, checking in. if i disappeared i dont think theyd notice, i dont think theyd care.
i never feel like im enough. im never sick enough to need help, im never good enough to deserve anything, never kind enough to be loved.
i would do anything for someone to realise how hard everything is. for them to reach out. i want someone to notice, i want to talk to someone, but i dont want them to know.
i know its hard to heal from something you dont talk about, but talking about it makes me feel so fucking guilty. i dont want to bother them.
its been so long, and im so tired of everything. i just want it to stop. i want everything to stop.
anyway, ive been struggling. a lot. recently.
i dont get messages from people. no one ever reaches out to me. im always the one saying hi, checking in. if i disappeared i dont think theyd notice, i dont think theyd care.
i never feel like im enough. im never sick enough to need help, im never good enough to deserve anything, never kind enough to be loved.
i would do anything for someone to realise how hard everything is. for them to reach out. i want someone to notice, i want to talk to someone, but i dont want them to know.
i know its hard to heal from something you dont talk about, but talking about it makes me feel so fucking guilty. i dont want to bother them.
its been so long, and im so tired of everything. i just want it to stop. i want everything to stop.
