((Trigger Warning)) I'm alone in my house and I'm having suicidal thoughts. My medications are locked up but I still have access to scissors. I have a 16 year history of depression and I have overdosed twice in my life. My dad works and my mom is away for the summer so I have no ride to go to the hospital. Two days ago I cut my wrist and called my clinic. I told my nurse and she talked to my psychiatrist. He thought we should wait until my appointment on Monday. I woke up at 6:00am with depression. It is now 9:42am and I'm still depressed. I'm scared and don't know what to do. What's the point of calling my clinic when they'll just shrug me off? It's like no one in my family understands how I feel. I feel depressed, hopeless, and helpless. Calling 911 is out of the question and I have no friends who live anywhere close to me to help. I'm turning to you guys because you kind of understand how I feel. Can someone at least just talk to me? Maybe help me feel better?