Hi, i dont know what should i do
I have a bipolar disorder type 2, so thats why i take antidepressants and neuroleptics (no lithium)
Also im into self destruction, like smoking, drinking, cutting, "overdosing", burning myself and maybe over eating. glad im still skinny
before going to psychiatrist and taking meds, i always was falling into apati and depression, no matter what reason, always hypomania - apati - depression over and over again
i was so tired of this, this shit really killed something in me. i was curious about how "normal" people live. i thought that this is the only way i have to live till I'll finally give up. i remember how suicidal i was once, totally ready to prepare the plan
but now, because of meds i feel so bad. im tired of feeling nothing, im tired of losing my emotions. i dont like that my personality starts to change. i dont like that i cant drink.
im loosing myself, thats why i feel bad
i dont like being "normal" in this way, i dont like seriously being mentally ill.
i dont know how i want to live, but obviously not to exist
(dont give advices like "switch the meds", in my situation i cant do this. also i cant stop taking them)
also sorry for my bad english, im from fucking CIS country
I have a bipolar disorder type 2, so thats why i take antidepressants and neuroleptics (no lithium)
Also im into self destruction, like smoking, drinking, cutting, "overdosing", burning myself and maybe over eating. glad im still skinny
before going to psychiatrist and taking meds, i always was falling into apati and depression, no matter what reason, always hypomania - apati - depression over and over again
i was so tired of this, this shit really killed something in me. i was curious about how "normal" people live. i thought that this is the only way i have to live till I'll finally give up. i remember how suicidal i was once, totally ready to prepare the plan
but now, because of meds i feel so bad. im tired of feeling nothing, im tired of losing my emotions. i dont like that my personality starts to change. i dont like that i cant drink.
im loosing myself, thats why i feel bad
i dont like being "normal" in this way, i dont like seriously being mentally ill.
i dont know how i want to live, but obviously not to exist
(dont give advices like "switch the meds", in my situation i cant do this. also i cant stop taking them)
also sorry for my bad english, im from fucking CIS country