i'm so depressed. i dont' know what to do. i just feel so down ALL the time. i don't even know why i'm so depressed, i just am. every day of my life i have to struggle with myself just to hold back the tears, which really isn't hard for me, cause i never cry. for some reason i just can't cry. it's impossible for me. i've just been so hurt in my life and now because of that i've turned so cold, and i can't really get close to anyone. i sarted getting close to one of my guy friends, and actually fell in love with him. he is the only person that i have ever really cared about. we're going out right now and it's been almost 7 weeks, but i just can't love him anymore. i'm just so cold, and i can't feel anything for him, or anyone anymore. it use to be so easy to love him, but now he just makes it so hard. he's also very severly depressed and i think also suicidal. i worry about him every single day, not knowing what he's going to do, or if he's stil gonna be alive the next day. recently, he tried overdosing on his seizure pills. i'm always so terrified that he's gonna kill himself, and i won't be able to handle it. and he has SO MANY problems. i just don't know what to do with him. i'm always stressing over him, and our relationship is just causing me so much pain and confusion. sometimes i think that it would be better if i just broke it off with him, but the problem is, i just love him to much. well guys, i'm sorry for writting so much. i didn't mean to. there is alot more to tell, but i've just ran out of time