Empathy and Advice Welcomed I'm so upset with myself. I'm so useless.

[souvenirsfrommarlins]

I made a terrible mistake today at school. Even though it only cost me 2.5 percentage points of my overall grade, I'm still so upset with myself for being so stupid. Every day, I find more evidence of my inferiority and general incompetence. I live in constant fear that I'm going to make a fatal mistake that will cause me to fail completely. And, when that happens, I'll have no reasonable choice but to end my life.

 

[Lara_C]

Welcome @souvenirsfrommarlins and sorry for what youre going through. Have you talked to anyone about how you're feeling and thinking? Family? Friends,, a coun sellor, your doctor? Please don't be afraid to ask for help, you don't have to cope alone and there are things that can help.

 

[souvenirsfrommarlins]

Welcome @souvenirsfrommarlins and sorry for what youre going through. Have you talked to anyone about how you're feeling and thinking? Family? Friends,, a coun sellor, your doctor? Please don't be afraid to ask for help, you don't have to cope alone and there are things that can help.

No, I haven't. I don't think it will do me any good. I don't want people to pity me or insist that I actually matter.

 

[Lara_C]

Can I ask when you started feeling like this?

 

[SillyOldBear]

I suspect you are being harder on yourself than you deserve. We all make mistakes. I remember those school days when I did dumb stuff that lowered my grade. I bet all those people you feel inferior to have made those mistakes too. You just don't know it. After all, you can't crawl into their minds and know what they are feeling. Try and be more gentle with yourself and continue your studies. As long as you do that you will progress. @souvenirsfrommarlins