I have been going further and further in overusing my medicine and I think if i don't wake up it won't matter. I told my husband. He wants to take me to the hospital. Im afraid to go. I am worried that it will upset my other two kids. I love them but i feel like I am just such a burden to everyone. I am a failure as a mom and I miss my daughter who died. I miss my mom. I think my life is almost over.