Doctors don't find anything wrong with me, but i'm unstable, my moods shift rapidly or settle to extremes for long periods. my way of coping with my moods is focussing on my compulsive behaviours, so that just fuels another fire. i feel like my whole life is falling apart because i can't be there for the ones who need me, can't take care of myself and can't cope with the things that i need to do. it's all just collapsing down to a theatrical dive at the end when my whole existence falls like Saigon. what the hell do i do?