Whenever I get in an argument or get cheated I want to kill myself. I usually quit wearing seat belts, take high risks at work by not using safety items (I am an electrician and work at great heights, I don't use safety harnesses or gloves when I am ticked. I also tell my wife "I am not eating" I feel so worthless because everyone walks all over me. I am such a nice guy I get taken advantage of and ripped off all the time. I can not speak my mind. I hate myself. Whats even worst, I consider myself a christian but these feelings just overpower me.