I have been ill now for 6 years and the toll on my wife is killing me I'm seriously considering self delete she is so beautiful and full of life and energy we dated and as freshman in high school and married when we turned 19 five children and 12 grandchildren I'm 61 and mostly tuck in bed all day suffering in pain and I know I'm a burden the pain may situation in California is EVIL in my experience they are more concerned about themselves than there patients I needed some where to get thes feelings out I've been in and out of the emergency room several times in the last week and I have been admitted for more than a a month total in the past 3 months I'm tired i was paralyzed for a year and afinal treatment helped me be mobile with a walker in the house for trips to bathroom but being in pain is wearing me out I'm not sure how much more I can take I'm trying to get a appointment with my 6th pain doctor and he works with neurologists so this is my last hope otherwise I'm out of here I'm now diabetic from all the high dose steroids I've been infused with I also receive IVIG infusions every week until I switched health care from bluesheild to molina and they have denied my treatments so my legs have stopped working NEVER GET MOLINA RAN BY REGAL THEY WONT PAY FOR ANYTHING I'm sorry for rambling lack of sleep or no sleep for weeks and months at a time has made me lose control of my thought
Is suicide my best solution for everone
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I'm so sorry to hear of your pain and suffering and the challenges you have been through and have now to deal with even receiving just basic adequate care for yourself. I heard weird things about Molina a couple of years ago so I didn't go with them when I was looking for a new insurance situation available to me in Texas before I aged into Medicare. I'm alone and have a mortal illness these past 5 years which will be my unavoidable probable path out in the next very few years unless something acute happens. I have a friend in Cali that is now being given problems with receiving his very small dosage of daily opiate from being injured 8 years ago, when he was pieced back together with mostly metal in his shoulders neck and head. And now it's become an issue for the evil medical profession to prescribe for him even though he's had the same doctors for years. I know it's a problem everywhere with medications and getting caring help but he has never abused what he has been given all this time.
Welcome here and Please don't apologize ever here in this forum for sharing what you are going through at any time. I'm now insomniac related to the illness I have, it destroys the mind even more than the body to not have sleep. Please take care of yourself and even though it's a hardship on your family I'm glad to hear you have them.
Welcome here and Please don't apologize ever here in this forum for sharing what you are going through at any time. I'm now insomniac related to the illness I have, it destroys the mind even more than the body to not have sleep. Please take care of yourself and even though it's a hardship on your family I'm glad to hear you have them.
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I'm so sorry for the pain, both phyiscally and emotionally, that has brought you to this point. It's a situation that I can recognise and so can understand where you're train of thought during these dark, dark moments. I just wish and hope that somewhere there'll be a chink of light where things would turn out better for you or at the very least ease up a bit for you.
