is this how everyone here thinks of me now?
i did not need to hear this and i am going to expose what peter sent me... the one i forgave so many times for lying to me.. the one who sent me an email saying he had died and it hurt me greatly but then to find out he had not died it really hurt... yet i forgave him out of the goodness of my heart... i really did.. and i continued to write to him... and he said hje was my friend.. well now appearently he is stating he got new lungs and is okay and out of the hospital so he wants to hurt me more by sending me the following..
----- Original Message -----
From: deathiscoming
To: susan sisco
Sent: Sunday, July 29, 2007 4:13 PM
Subject: Re: Good bye my friend
well susan, it's ur own fault. Reason being cause ur like a human yo-yo. Ur diing, then ur not then u are then not, yes no, yes no, yes no. No one believes u anymore. And like I said in the beginiing which u got so mad at me for, U lie, no one likes liers. Oh well, to bad so sad. See ya.
I THOUGHT HE WAS MY FRIEND.. I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST HIM... I THOUGHT HE CARED BUT NO ONE EVER HAS CARED FOR ME EVER.. THEY USE ME..
I CAME ON HERE WITH AN HONEST AND OPEN HEART POSTING WHAT I FEEL AT TIMES AND NOW I GET CALLED A LIAR.. I HAVE NEVER LIED TO ANYONE HERE.. I DONT DO THAT ANYMORE.. I CANT TRUST ANYONE... I AM SO FREEKING STUPID... I JUST CANT LIVE LIKE THIS.. I CANT TRUST.. I THOUGHT HE REALLY CARED.. NOW IM HURTING MORE AND MORE... I JUST WANT TO DIE..
I HONESTLY WANT TO DIE AND GET OUT OF THIS STUPID LIFE OF MINE... IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY.
MY STUPID PAST WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE ...NEVER...
Peter you can all me a liar all you want to, but i was not the one who deceived everyone here thinking that you had died.. i forgave you and you continue to hurt me..
i thought you cared.. i thought you loved me..
everyone sees me as this then i might as well end it right here right now, just get it over with.. i am so tired of trying to show others that i am not that way anymorte.. that i dont do those things anymore and that i am an honest person , yet everyone thinks of me as this liar and who knows whatelse.. i cant do this anymore.. i just cant.. it hurts way too much and im sorry.. i am so sorry that you all think of me that way..
i just needed a place to let my true and honest feelings out on.. a plavce to get comfort.. a place to get support.. yet i cant even do that without my past putting a damper upon me...
I HAVE NEVER LIED AT ALL ONLINE HERE.. NOT ONCE.. ALL THE FEELINGS WHERE MY TRUE FEELINGS.. ALL THE HURT IS MY TRUE DEEP HURT.. AND IF YOU ALL THINK THAT WAY OF ME THEN I REALLY CANT GET ANY HELP FROM ANYONE.
NO WONDER THE MINISTER HATES ME.. NO WONDER NO ONE LOVES ME.. IT IS ALL MY FAULT.. I AM JUST A STUPID PERSON WHO DOESNT DESERVE TO LIVE...
i did not need to hear this and i am going to expose what peter sent me... the one i forgave so many times for lying to me.. the one who sent me an email saying he had died and it hurt me greatly but then to find out he had not died it really hurt... yet i forgave him out of the goodness of my heart... i really did.. and i continued to write to him... and he said hje was my friend.. well now appearently he is stating he got new lungs and is okay and out of the hospital so he wants to hurt me more by sending me the following..
----- Original Message -----
From: deathiscoming
To: susan sisco
Sent: Sunday, July 29, 2007 4:13 PM
Subject: Re: Good bye my friend
well susan, it's ur own fault. Reason being cause ur like a human yo-yo. Ur diing, then ur not then u are then not, yes no, yes no, yes no. No one believes u anymore. And like I said in the beginiing which u got so mad at me for, U lie, no one likes liers. Oh well, to bad so sad. See ya.
I THOUGHT HE WAS MY FRIEND.. I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST HIM... I THOUGHT HE CARED BUT NO ONE EVER HAS CARED FOR ME EVER.. THEY USE ME..
I CAME ON HERE WITH AN HONEST AND OPEN HEART POSTING WHAT I FEEL AT TIMES AND NOW I GET CALLED A LIAR.. I HAVE NEVER LIED TO ANYONE HERE.. I DONT DO THAT ANYMORE.. I CANT TRUST ANYONE... I AM SO FREEKING STUPID... I JUST CANT LIVE LIKE THIS.. I CANT TRUST.. I THOUGHT HE REALLY CARED.. NOW IM HURTING MORE AND MORE... I JUST WANT TO DIE..
I HONESTLY WANT TO DIE AND GET OUT OF THIS STUPID LIFE OF MINE... IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY.
MY STUPID PAST WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE ...NEVER...
Peter you can all me a liar all you want to, but i was not the one who deceived everyone here thinking that you had died.. i forgave you and you continue to hurt me..
i thought you cared.. i thought you loved me..
everyone sees me as this then i might as well end it right here right now, just get it over with.. i am so tired of trying to show others that i am not that way anymorte.. that i dont do those things anymore and that i am an honest person , yet everyone thinks of me as this liar and who knows whatelse.. i cant do this anymore.. i just cant.. it hurts way too much and im sorry.. i am so sorry that you all think of me that way..
i just needed a place to let my true and honest feelings out on.. a plavce to get comfort.. a place to get support.. yet i cant even do that without my past putting a damper upon me...
I HAVE NEVER LIED AT ALL ONLINE HERE.. NOT ONCE.. ALL THE FEELINGS WHERE MY TRUE FEELINGS.. ALL THE HURT IS MY TRUE DEEP HURT.. AND IF YOU ALL THINK THAT WAY OF ME THEN I REALLY CANT GET ANY HELP FROM ANYONE.
NO WONDER THE MINISTER HATES ME.. NO WONDER NO ONE LOVES ME.. IT IS ALL MY FAULT.. I AM JUST A STUPID PERSON WHO DOESNT DESERVE TO LIVE...