Is this weird?

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by Michaels_, Jan 7, 2013.

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  1. Michaels_

    Michaels_ Member

    K so I have problems with depression and other stuff blah blah blah I find something actually makes me feel better when its not really supposed to. I am hoping at least 1 other person can relate to it.

    When I am really feeling bad I don't do what many often tell me which is try to make myself cheerful with nice music or watch something that makes me laugh I actually do the total opposite! I often search out and find deliberate sad or unfortunate true stories in order to relate them to myself for confirmation that I am not as bad as I thought. For example on another forum I was on recently a mother was talking about the distress she had been through because her 19 year old son was convicted of attempting to lure and have sex with a 15 year old girl from the internet. His life is basically now ruined through forever having that conviction under his name. Other charges can sometimes be looked past but anything to do with children is an instant life over type charge. The mother expressed the son had a big future planned with many prospects which have all now been flushed right down the toilet since doing this and being added to the sex offenders register. Reading this for me was something of a relief, yes it was sad but the guy made the decision himself to do the crime. I do find a degree of contentment knowing my life will never be that bad as how his will be from such a young age knowing no matter what he tries to become or do he will be forever shunned and hated upon for his crime.

    I feel bad some too that I am finding selfish contentment on the downfall/suffering of others and putting it to use realizing I could be so much worse but I figure hey whatever works! I don't find the contentment in the suffering of others, I only find the contentment in knowing it wasn't me and how my life will be way easier compared to them.

    Any thoughts on this please.
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Years ago, I could not cry...I was afraid if I started, I would never stop, so I viewed sad events to cry which allowed me a release from how I was this regard, I understand what you are saying
  3. anotherearthplease27

    anotherearthplease27 Well-Known Member

    yes and no........i used to.....but now when i watch those movies it upsets me more..............................i feel i have absoluteltyly one who loves me for me(they tolerate me and do there familial duty)...i cant even say that i have a good life or ever had one that would be ruined by an act of now i just watch thses shows numb.........feeling like a freak that I no longer can relate....
  4. snarrylover

    snarrylover Well-Known Member

    That would never work for me. I'm a firm believer in it's not what you've been through, it's how you handle it. Looking at sad things would just make be sadder. And the thing you said about the sex offender...I wouldn't feel sorry for him. I'd hate him and get angry at the world. So everyone is different and we all have different things we turn to for help. It doesn't make you weird. It makes you, you.
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