I tried to call the psychiatrist that I've been seeing for years to talk. We made an appointment and I felt better just knowing that it was coming up.
He couldn't seem to understand and really talked over me about himself except for talking about medication. I said I had been in a suicide chat ro which didn't make a dentist. "What? Chat room?" he said. "SUICIDE", I finally said, realizing that his hearing may not be so good anymore.
So, I kind of listened to him mumble about this and that, getting teary and waiting until I could get off the phone. Feeling very alone and lost.
When we said goodbye, he said, "by the way if you feel suicidal, you can call me."
I guess I have to find someone else although I am not sure where who. So ironic.
He couldn't seem to understand and really talked over me about himself except for talking about medication. I said I had been in a suicide chat ro which didn't make a dentist. "What? Chat room?" he said. "SUICIDE", I finally said, realizing that his hearing may not be so good anymore.
So, I kind of listened to him mumble about this and that, getting teary and waiting until I could get off the phone. Feeling very alone and lost.
When we said goodbye, he said, "by the way if you feel suicidal, you can call me."
I guess I have to find someone else although I am not sure where who. So ironic.
