Been struggling a lot with many issues. Laying on the couch and been feeling sad and frustrated. Tired and exhausted and ready for the day to end. I just want to sleep for a long time. Just seems every time I'm awake I mess up one way or another. I am scared going anywhere in public and lately been out everyday due to some appointment. I'm exhausted in all these appointments but having 4 kids and one more on the way, it's expected. People look at me and at times makes comments that is just too much emotionally. I'm just prepared to tell anyone that wants to say unkind things to me that I really don't need the nasty comments or unkindness. Just too much and sad it triggers the suicidal thoughts. Just tired of life being so difficult.