It feels like a ticking clock...

[Hatether]

I was so happy last year and I lost everything. I've never known loneliness like this before and all without any reason. Nothing to help me grow or evolve or even have closure on why my life was just ripped apart. I have no friends, no family, noone. At work my mind is focussed on other things but the second I head home I enter a state where all I can think of is when and how. It keeps growing and only feels like a matter of time.

I just want to die.

 

[gypsylee]

I was so happy last year and I lost everything. I've never known loneliness like this before and all without any reason. Nothing to help me grow or evolve or even have closure on why my life was just ripped apart. I have no friends, no family, noone. At work my mind is focussed on other things but the second I head home I enter a state where all I can think of is when and how. It keeps growing and only feels like a matter of time.

I just want to die.

{hug} @Hatether

I do know what it’s like to lose.. Two of the most important people in my life got taken from me in 2014 — one forever and with no warning at all.

I haven’t lost everything though. I personally know several people who have become homeless and are sleeping in their cars at night.

Hang in there..
Gypsy x

 

[j2415]

I’m sorry you are facing such a difficult time. Please don’t go through this sadness alone. Keep posting, we are willing to listen. I hope you will find the support and encouragement you need through this forum. Please don't harm yourself.

I pray for peace as you go through this journey. I hope you will feel well soon. Take care.

 

[Walker]

Sorry you're feeling so crap right now. You said you're feeling like this "for no reason". I know we're all like broken records here but are you taking any medications or sought any therapy?

 

[I want to go to sleep now]

I know just how your feeling. I feel my time
Is getting closer each day. I just want peace in my heart but all I have is pain and loneliness. I’m not a bad person. I’ve been sober and clean for nearly 15 years and thought this was bring a new and purposeful life. I’m ready to sleep for good but can’t find the courage to
Make it happen. I know I will find it because living this miserable life is not an option anymore.

 

[Were all together]

Hello,
It's hard to deal with difficult times, without the support of family and close friends. You say you have no support on why your life was ripped apart? Have you tried a therapist? If not, have you been taking meds? We're here to listen to you. Well try to help the best we can. But, you have to meet us halfway. Tell us what's been bothering you. What's happening in your life. We're all here to listen.

 

[I want to go to sleep now]

A big family fall out happened and they all blame me for their greed. I’ve had to close my business down I spent 9 years building. Money or possessions don’t make you happy. It’s hurtful way they have and continue to try to destroy me. I’m in AA and have been for 15 years sober and do talk to people. I just feel I’ve had enough of life. I’ve always wanted a child and it’s never happened and it eats away at me everyday. Loneliness is what I live with every day

 

[Were all together]

Congratulations on your sobriety! Don't dwell on what could have been. You have to put sights on the future. I don't know your circumstances were with your business. But, maybe you can start it up again? Maybe, not as big. Have you tried seeing a therapist? Many of them can help you with the family situation.

 

[I want to go to sleep now]

Hi
Just had a friend come and stay for the weekend who understands and as been through the same as what I’m going through. It helped talking but as soon as he left I’m back to feeling anxious. The feelings just start to come back again. I don’t want tomorrow to come and start the whole merry go round again
Hope your all well

 

[Hatether]

Hi
Just had a friend come and stay for the weekend who understands and as been through the same as what I’m going through. It helped talking but as soon as he left I’m back to feeling anxious. The feelings just start to come back again. I don’t want tomorrow to come and start the whole merry go round again
Hope your all well

I feel the same, I will talk to friends and be happy, then the second I am alone the thoughts return and I just wish the moments with them could last forever.