I'm depressed again. My meds don't even help. I was on twice the recommended dosage of Citalopram because my depression grew balls, and dug in deeper and deeper. Now I'm back to regular dosage (40mg, from 80), and what can I say... it sucks donkey balls. I'm either feeling OK (hypomania), or depressed. It's more the latter sometimes. I just want to know whether I am heard or not, in this endless abyss of depression. On top of my schizoaffective disorder, depression truly sucks.