it never goes away, every single day there is something that will make the day shit. i thought i was happy for once for awhile but i was wrong. all it did was make me worse, seems like the only thing that makes me feel better is these drugs, when everyone tells me they will make my life a shit hole. but these drugs are the only things that understands me and helps me forget all my problems and just live. i seriously dont know what to do, im so lost in this world i hate being hurt. i cant seem to understand why eveyone else around me is happy while im sitting here in pain, why that cant be me instead. everyday i feel good at sometime, but everyday i feel horrible at sometime, i dont know whats wrong with me.