My depression is a near constant in my life. Sometimes I handle it better than other times, but its always there. The best way I find to deal with it is by talking to someone that I trust. I have been through many therapists and I just can never open up to them. I never tell them enough to get relief. I trust my girlfriends the most. I can talk to them. But my depression is so overwhelming that they just get fed up and leave. And the friends I don't talk to, I just become so withdrawn and don't spend time with them or talk to them at all. My depression is my own self destruction but its out of control sometimes. I don't know how to find balance.