Hi recently diagnosed as Bipolar but I've just moved to uni and doctors stuff has changed so not on any meds or anything. It took me years to ask for help and I can't now as I've never even met my new doctor. There are medical staff on campus too but still its hard. Just made a post in the uncertainty principle about housemate stuff and that might explain a lot. But I just feel like I'm going to break down. I have never even told my friends and I feel that I need to but something just stops me. I get to where I feel I almost could and then I just change the subject or drink. I drink quite a lot and some of my friends do but not every night and not to the extent that I do but because I often make jokes about it and they're used to it they don't get that it's a problem, it's almost funny to them. Don't get me wrong, they're not bad friends but I've made my drinking such a joke that I don't think that I could talk seriously about it and that is a major part of my Bipolar disorder.