Just found out our game tomorrow has been canceled

Practice was rough for me today. I was already feeling worthless, then when we split up into backs and forwards, the forwards were doing scrum drills with partners and there was an odd number of people so I ended up without one (until a guy had to sit out). It just felt so terrible. When I talked to one of the guys after practice about it, he told me I should have spoken up about it and seemed a little annoyed at me. I tried to discuss my insecurities and how I felt like I wasn't important enough, but he was picking up on different things than I was meaning to emphasize. On the bus ride home, I texted the captain and told him that I'd felt like I was just in the way, and he was very reassuring. I guess I'm feeling a bit better now; I don't know. I still feel bad for bugging him even though he thanked me for being honest.
Super bummed about the game though.