I ended up being sad to leave practice for my appointment because we were working on something I need a lot of practice with and it's also a fun drill because you get to hit the pads. I had a really good appointment with the counselor though. She helped get me a little more comfortable with the idea of going to the hospital if I end up feeling as suicidal as I did last Monday. She advised me on what I should do about the class I'm concerned about and other stuff too. Then when I got out, there were free chips and queso and apples and chocolate and hot chocolate or cider n the plaza where I like to hang out with friends. Today wound up being surprisingly okay.