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Thaaaanks for the tag, always a pleasure, never a chore......haha
@Woowoo same as yourself nae motivation what so ever. As for the housework? I'm using the old housewife's motto "f*ck it, that'll do" (until tomorrow :P But as always, I had to get up at 06:15 to give Mollie her insulin, took my cat to the vet, went food shopping with the other half (can't do it on my own, I pure panic, more so than usual)! Buuuuut I'm back home, had two (small) cakes, a cup of tea and then took Mollie to the park. Phew, I just want my bed now......and some cake lol xXx
@Woowoo same as yourself nae motivation what so ever. As for the housework? I'm using the old housewife's motto "f*ck it, that'll do" (until tomorrow :P But as always, I had to get up at 06:15 to give Mollie her insulin, took my cat to the vet, went food shopping with the other half (can't do it on my own, I pure panic, more so than usual)! Buuuuut I'm back home, had two (small) cakes, a cup of tea and then took Mollie to the park. Phew, I just want my bed now......and some cake lol xXx
@Woowoo I'm pure dead (really) proud of myself for conquering so much! I think the main motivation was, if I got everything over with before I fully woke up, I'd reward myself with bed! Haha sad, but true. I'm back in the safety of the confines of my home and just about bed.......that is, if I there's enough room! Lol much love and hugs to you on the sofa xXx
I'm going to try to go out for a walk- it looks like its going to be a nice day - but I just want some company.
I spend all week at work looking forward to the weekend and then when it gets here it's usually such a huge disappointment and I end up spending it in tears
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I spend all week at work looking forward to the weekend and then when it gets here it's usually such a huge disappointment and I end up spending it in tears
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i am at a point of just throwing my hands up and - as asked about in another thread - give up. then there are those who get so fed up they go on a rampage or other no good wild kind of thing. i am so sure now that i won’t be finding the help the mental healthcare system seemed to be offering and promising. i feel betrayed by those who i have seen and then got ripped away from. i don’t know if it was just lies by people trying to make lots of money or they are just not really made of the stuff it takes to be effective.
honestly i feel that a true mental healthcare worker should be dedicated enough to work for free - putting their heart and soul into helping people and doing it by actually trying to understand what is going on in people’s minds - not depending on only what is taught in schools. (then the system has an obligation to take care of these providers financially) i still believe that there are people in the field who are honest, caring, compassionate and educated enough to make changes but they don’t really do it. they dont really have something so powerful that they feel prompted and they are restricted by imagined ethics and at the same time, the field is ruled by insurance and pharmaceutical companies.
these things may be the road block more powerful than hijacker so i am not expecting any more help for myself. i am restricted by the fact that i need to pay for my home and feed my family. i believe i have a very keen understanding of what is going on in my mind and as well what goes on in others (in a very general way). i believe i could contribute productively to improving things. yet i feel so powerless and useless. my art is a waste and i feel as if therapy has left me (abandoned me) to just waste away the rest of my life. i don’t really like that.
i’m sitting here with “the body keeps the score by van der konl, m.d. i read half the book and stopped when i realized that my former therapist was possibly just bullshitting me for 3 plus years. she recommended the book. but i am not necessarily that disenfranchised, disheartened, and skeptical. i want more out of the promise than i believe most are willing and able to give. i want to do something myself. and i want support. i want support from real people from somewhere. where i do not know. maybe from here.
i took a 12 week course at nami and they speak of ending stigma but all they talk about is stigma and mental illness like it is something you would want to stay away from. i think that many who want to end stigma, are actually strengthening it with the way they talk about it - classifying and categorizing people and keeping them isolated. the world is by nature a crazy place. everyone is crazy to a degree and when they exhibit that, they need to get over the problem. some can’t so easily and then it is the responsibility of the rest to find a way to help.
if i can, with my nonexistent resources, i want to play an active proactive role in changing the world. laugh at me if you are so inclined. i am hoping that some people join and help me. i have no idea how to do it especially when i’m feeling so down. being here at jims does help a bit at feeling better. i hope that between my rants about hijacker and the foolish love for my former therapist i somehow am able to bring something worthwhile into the world that will help people like myself who are somehow afflicted, actually overcome enough to feel good a significant part of the time.
i think it can be done without drugs and with therapists, psychologists and the like actually working for their money. if you feel compelled to contradict me a bit because you feel that your provider is an honest and compassionate person, i think that is great. i will listen to anything you say, but please listen to me too. i will always believe that healing without meds is the better way. i will always think that it is necessary for some provideres to put in way more effort and thinking than to just make a few clients feel good.
so this is my rant for the day. i am thinking of changing the world. i may die with this fantasy, but if there is any way i can bring it close to reality i will. in my disarray, i hope one day i might attract someone else who thinks the way i do to share doing something about it with me.
Okay, now that I've spammed the shit out of Ash's notifications with likes...I'm ready to post.
First of all, I don't really plan things for the weekend. I just go with whatever happens and hope for the best. :P
Second, happy birthday to whomever has a birthday, including the friend you mentioned, @Freya.
Third, look at that, @Ash600 You're now the Dark Buddha and god-like.
First of all, I don't really plan things for the weekend. I just go with whatever happens and hope for the best. :P
Second, happy birthday to whomever has a birthday, including the friend you mentioned, @Freya.
Third, look at that, @Ash600 You're now the Dark Buddha and god-like.
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