My depression has a stranglehold on my life. I have been diagnosed for more than 10 years and nothing seems to break that foggy window I look through every day. Had a real meltdown in Dec and was cutting myself and off my meds. I got the 72 hour hold, (insurance kicked me out) and my meds changed but still brought no relief. I actually feel worse than when I went in. I am in a constant fog and state of confusion. All I want to do is sleep all day and really can't get myself going. I work from home and have a ton of stuff piling up. The burden is so great. Meanwhile my house is going to be foreclosed on b/c our legal system is a farce. Now I have turned to my old friend cutting. I feel like a balloon that is going to pop. If I was ever closer to the edge I'd be over it. I have my suicide plan and a backup, but all I can think about is my family. This depression has hit a new low. I see no light at the end of the tunnel. I know many of you have been there or are there now. Any thoughts to keep me from 6 feet under?