Just anybody

[jmm]

haven't posted much this last week , been very down . Been binge drinking a bit , slept maybe 17 hours total this week , ended up cutting again like an idiot , twice in a month after 7 months of doing none and 3 years with only one incident . A lot of self loathing , really lonely , gave my roommate my <Mod Edit - Methods> so I don't make a choice I can't take back . I just don't wanto feel alone right now . I can't take another night of feeling completely alone . Just anyone with any compassion for an old pathetic alchy say hi , or tell me to stop being whiny , tell me to F off it didn't matter I'll take anything .

 

[Deety]

Hi! I get that feeling, sorry you are feeling so low at the moment. Any chance of getting some more sleep?

 

[Sarasdad08]

haven't posted much this last week , been very down . Been binge drinking a bit , slept maybe 17 hours total this week , ended up cutting again like an idiot , twice in a month after 7 months of doing none and 3 years with only one incident . A lot of self loathing , really lonely , gave my roommate my hunting guns so I don't make a choice I can't take back . I just don't wanto feel alone right now . I can't take another night of feeling completely alone . Just anyone with any compassion for an old pathetic alchy say hi , or tell me to stop being whiny , tell me to F off it didn't matter I'll take anything .

Sold all my hunting weapons for the same reason. Good thing i guess cause every day seems worse

 

[Laiceyshae]

Hey, I wish we could be friends so that we could stay up all night just eating, drinking, watching movies to pass the time. Sometimes just having someone sitting next to you makes it all better.

 

[dugga]

Hi @jmm - you're self-destructing... the drinking, the cutting, the self-loathing. I've been there I know how it feels. There's more to life - you need to get out and find it. The answer isn't at the bottom of a bottle. I don't pretend that it's easy, it's not, but the first step is to get off the booze. There are a lot of great resources and people who will help you - just take that first step. You've acknowledged that you a have a problem so you know what you need to do. Good luck - you can do it.

 

[Petal]

Hi @jmm how are you feeling today? Hopefully better and hopefully you got some more sleep. You might have SH'd but that's just a bump on the road and you can go another long length of time without harming yourself, you've proved to yourself that you can already do that and I commend you on giving your friend the methods so you don't do something you cannot undo, keep talking to us here because we do care (hugs) if you like/want them.

 

[Innocent Forever]

Hi

 

[Manji]

I wish I could take away your pain... and mine. I'm here to talk to if want. Just as lonely

 

[PaladinofKnights]

Yo man I'm here try to get some sleep dude. Hit me up if you wanna chat.

 

[Silverpuddle]

Hi, @jmm . . . I know what it's like to be stuck in the vicious cycle of alcohol. I recently spent several months drunk, and I can relate to how alcohol makes things feel all right in the short term, but then you sober up & you still have all your old problems, plus the shame of having gotten drunk and done nothing about them. I know this isn't the forum to tell people what to do--so I'll just say that I quit alcohol a couple of weeks ago and life already feels a ton better.

I'm so glad you took steps to keep yourself safe. You're a good person and worthy of being alive.