I have been in and out of the mental health care system on and off for 12years for depression, low mood, self harming and drug and alcohol abuse, I have just been given a diagnosis of bpd..... but this has just caused even more disruption to my life and I really need some experienced advice on how to self manage myself and get back to some "normality' again!!! In the last 3 months I have been in complete self destruction mode, I've lost my long term partner, contact with my children, I've ended up in trouble with the law for lashing out in anger and have to attend two court dates next week! I've just lost my job in which I was a duty manager for a large pub chain and that is going to mean that I won't be able to afford my house, I've already attempted suicide twice thus calendar year, once wrist cutting and overdose, and an unsuccessful hanging attempt. I just want to feel like I can cope but until I do I just seem to be digging a bigger and deeper hole for myself!!!