Since the hospital fired me I've lost not only my income but my health insurance. This means that I can't get any more therapy or afford my medications. I'd actually be living in my car right now if my parents were't paying my rent. I feel so bad about that I actually wish I was living in my car sometimes so that my parents could retire comfortably. My mother has worked so hard to get to that point and now the hospital has ruined her end of life enjoyment too.
I feel really depressed today. I always feel extremely and severely depressed on Sunday evenings. That's because the next day is always Monday meaning work or school. I just haven't felt this way in a long time because my therapy and medication were helpful in keeping me afloat. I feel like I won't make it past the end of this year. Honestly that's not what I want. I'm trying as hard as I can. I'm desperate for something to work out to keep me going soon.
I volunteer weekly at the animal shelter. The days in between I'm taking an online class at Wellesley College to learn Italian. I've always wanted to be fluent in multiple languages so I'm learning them since I have time now. In the past I wasted all of my time becoming a doctor. Just trying to keep busy so that if I ever do get a job again I don't have to tell them that I sat around my house all day being depressed.
I feel really depressed today. I always feel extremely and severely depressed on Sunday evenings. That's because the next day is always Monday meaning work or school. I just haven't felt this way in a long time because my therapy and medication were helpful in keeping me afloat. I feel like I won't make it past the end of this year. Honestly that's not what I want. I'm trying as hard as I can. I'm desperate for something to work out to keep me going soon.
I volunteer weekly at the animal shelter. The days in between I'm taking an online class at Wellesley College to learn Italian. I've always wanted to be fluent in multiple languages so I'm learning them since I have time now. In the past I wasted all of my time becoming a doctor. Just trying to keep busy so that if I ever do get a job again I don't have to tell them that I sat around my house all day being depressed.