Just one more night.

[hopeless13]

well its almost 2 a.m. no sleep tonite again
my life is so hopeless anyway
why wld sleep be any different
reading posts here in order to stay safe tonite
the funny thing is i have the means of permanently
going to sleep beside me, all I have to do is open
the bottle up and down them all.
and why shouldn't I, after all my life is garbage
my work on this earth is done
you know why I can't take those tonite
because I told a member I would stick around so
I can chat with them in the chat room tomorrow.
that is my one reason not to end it tonight.
that is my one little reason to hang on for tonight.

 

[Green.Triceratops]

Glad you have one reason to sty here with us. I dont think i've talked to you ever. Not gonna say i know all the answers but i'll try to help. Whats got you ready for the big sleep?

 

[hopeless13]

Glad you have one reason to sty here with us. I dont think i've talked to you ever. Not gonna say i know all the answers but i'll try to help. Whats got you ready for the big sleep?

i can''t take itt any more
theeres nothingg left
imm just a waasste of space.

 

[Green.Triceratops]

You dont have to be. Why not go out and help someone else? You'll feel better maybe and someone else will have gotten help they really need. Or maybe go and seek out your own help.

Why are you a waste of space? Please stay with me and talk i'm kinda hypomanic and need someone to talk with

 

[hopeless13]

You dont have to be. Why not go out and help someone else? You'll feel better maybe and someone else will have gotten help they really need. Or maybe go and seek out your own help.

Why are you a waste of space? Please stay with me and talk i'm kinda hypomanic and need someone to talk with

what wld u llllike to tlak talk about?

 

[Green.Triceratops]

Lets talk about why you feel you are wasting space - because i'm certain thats not true. After all, you're keeping me company and thats an important task.

 

[hopeless13]

Lets talk about why you feel you are wasting space - because i'm certain thats not true. After all, you're keeping me company and thats an important task.

i am very good at helping people that need help
but to help myself i do not do it
where i live until i got sick i advocated for people
but now its me and I can't do it
theres such an empty feeling a no good feeling a failed feeling
i am in a dark deep hole and theres no way out
going for that long sleep is the only way i see
its like i am sitting on a fence
death is on the right side life is on the left side
and right now death is what i feel i deserve.
but how are you dong?

 

[Green.Triceratops]

If you cannot advocate for yourself perhaps you should find someone who can advocate for you as you have done for others. I can understand a bit of what you mean about the fence thing. No on deserves death... Unless they take a life that isnt theirs and thats still a bit iffy. You just gotta ask for help and be honest no matter what, embrace it even.